Unpaid Bills Vs. New Jewelry?

Yesterday Jonathan quite unexpectedly brought me a gift: a beautiful Bulgari necklace. I went through a series of mixed emotions: surprise, disbelief, joy, sadness... Not that he never bought jewelry for me - in fact he did, especially in the first couple of years when we just started living together. But then things happened - a baby, mortgage, financial crisis... So I haven't been spoiled by any fancy gifts in the past few years. Even for my birthdays Jonathan would limit the usual fun by taking me out with no presents attached.

Needless to say I felt this childish joy when I got the present - I unwrapped it with my trebling fingers, ran to the mirror to try it on. But then... I couldn't help but questioning its cost. It has been a couple of rough years for us financially. As of now we are at least three months behind on our mortgage. And the bills are so overwhelming. So I started preaching to Jonathan about "You shouldn't have..." and "We cannot afford it.." I know I made him upset. He said he is not returning it so whether I like it or not - I gotta keep it.
Why, oh why couldn't I just accept it, kiss Jonathan gently and call him the best husband ever? Why did I have to kill his enthusiasm to show appreciation and love?
Finances matter - that's beyond doubt, but so does romanticism.

I wish I could learn again to feel like a woman, so desperately loved and desired, that her man would put all of his possessions to her feet asking nothing in return. I wish I could learn to separate feelings from budgeting, love from materialistic issues, happiness from every day routine. Let's all learn to accept gifts with grace and gratefulness, Let's appreciate this magic moment while it lasts, and worry about the bills later.